Journal: #185 Talking to the Lord Like A Friend


I think a lot of thoughts and go over situations in mind. It’s how I live. My thoughts can be about a football game or political situation, or my dad. Usually, I imagine conversations and possibilities. How can help my new client reach more people? What do I say in my next conversation with my older sister? Or what’s the best way to spend/invest any stimulus money?

It’s in this space I hone my point of view or expose my flaws. Sometimes I hear the anger in my voice, and on occasion the arrogance. Whenever this happens I stop myself. These are the moments I want to address with the Lord.

Lately, my heart has asked for more from my relationship from the Lord than counselor. But, I’m not sure how to do that. What does more with the Lord look like? What does it sound like?

Today on my first walk, I simply began to talk to the Lord about my work. It was very matter of fact the way I might discuss recent events with a friend. He listened as I told Him how thankful I was for the opportunity to work with the team at Cultre. They are everything my last business partner wasn’t.

It was a very ordinary conversation between, yet new. I wasn’t talking to myself, but to the Lord about my life. I wasn’t in a position of need or compelled to act. I could feel the Holy Spirit gliding along with me as I spoke. When I finished I could tell He wanted to hear more.

Isn’t this the Lord too? He loves me enough to want to know my thoughts and feelings about my life. Our relationship is no longer about highs and lows, but the everyday and the plain. I love it. I love Him, and I’m glad I sharing all of my life with the same God who made the Universe.

What a time to be alive.


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Nik Curfman

I am a writer and artist in the early stages of my trek. I spent 20 years trying to be who I thought I needed to be, and now I am running after who I am. Fearless Grit is my space to document and share the process. 

https://fearlessgrit.com
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