Walk in the Woods
Vol III: #62 New Job
As I see it, the real prize isn’t a more prestigious job title or more money. The true gift is the leaders on the team, and this is an answer to prayer too. I asked for leadership training and I’m going to get it. What a blessing. And from men who have integrity and grace. Seriously and for a second time, what a freaking blessing.
Wasn’t too long ago I wrote about needing a job. And then, magically or randomly, a sales role landed in my lap. No resume needed, no real interview required. Two friends vouched for my character and experience and the job was mine. Today I began to swim in this new stream. It feels familiar yet different- emails, sales projections, and client meetings, but no office or rah-rah company culture. My role as a sale manager will test what I know and push me to be better than I ever was. And, I will be paid better than any previous job. So, win-win. Right?
As I see it, the real prize isn’t a more prestigious job title or more money. The true gift is the leaders on the team, and this is an answer to prayer too. I asked for leadership training and I’m going to get it. What a blessing. And from men who have integrity and grace. Seriously and for a second time, what a freaking blessing.
I don’t know what will come over the next three months or the year after, but I do know my new job is a gift from the Lord. My goal is to extract every ounce of learnin’ and growin’ I can. And buy my momma a fancy vacation for Christmas.
Thank you Lord.
Vol II: #33 Prayer Answered
Today, during an event I will not describe in more detail, I saw several Christian leaders apologize to weeping people around a larger meeting room. Even though they didn’t apologize to me personally, I felt something crack in my heart. The road ahead is still long, and I’ve got some work to do, but I’m on my way. One day at a time.
Today, I saw something I needed to see.
Monday morning, on my stroll through the wood, I cried and seethed to the Lord. I was angry. Again. For the millionth time, the topic of conversation turned to errors and suffering caused by poor Christian leadership. I told the Lord about how my heart hurt for not only my experience but that of my brother and my friends. At one point I whispered, ” I just need to hear someone say ‘we fucked up.’”
Today, during an event I will not describe in more detail, I saw several Christian leaders apologize to weeping people around a large meeting room. Even though they didn’t apologize to me personally, I felt something crack in my heart. The road ahead is still long, and I’ve got some work to do, but I’m on my way. One day at a time.
Journal: #321 What Judgement Free Can Be
Slow and steady wins this race, and the one tomorrow. I’m not going to fail myself today regardless of how today ends. I asked the Lord to help me eliminate the judgemental voices in my head, and He’s doing it. Through a combination of grace and gratitude, I’ve kept my cool. I love it. If this is my future I’m excited.
My day began slowly today. I got up late, decided to skip going to the trails, and went for a short walk in my neighborhood. Due to work meetings, I had to shift my normal morning routine. For example, I am writing this post at 2 pm PST— when I prefer to write earlier in the day. I haven’t done yoga or finished my work. (Two projects are due today.) And yet…and yet…I’m cool as the underside of the pillow. It’s unusual. I’m typically in a frantic rush to appease all the voices. But not today, not right now.
Slow and steady wins this race, and the one tomorrow. I’m not going to fail myself today regardless of how today ends. I asked the Lord to help me eliminate the judgemental voices in my head, and He’s doing it. Through a combination of grace and gratitude, I’ve kept my cool. I love it. If this is my future I’m excited.
(Correspondingly, I do not feel the need to make this post a certain length. I love that too.)