Vol II: #67 What’s Next?
I am guilty of moving into the next season of life without savoring the flavorful bits of the present season. It’s the manner in which I lived life for most of my life- half of my effort spent on the now and half focused on the beyond. I hate it. When the line is crossed and all the hugs are given, it’s important to celebrate the victory. And, over the last week and a half, I let myself feel good about graduating from BSSM. From the first day of class until the final weeks, I questioned my ability to finish and push through each challenge. And, this sense of accomplishment is a complete contrast to how I felt when I graduated from college. I stood on the sidewalk outside the political science building, final paper submitted, yet unhappy and anxious. Thank God.
I don’t have a concrete plan for what’s next in my life, but I do have desires. What I desire most is to continue to sit with the Lord to renew my mind- to destroy old fears and beliefs. The great reward for this practice is I get to receive from Him whatever is good and holy. Next, I want to set up daily habits to win in all areas of life, mainly health and finances. Lastly, and just as important, I need to find communities to sow into and be sown into. This is the newest desire in my heart now that my Lone Wolf spirit is dead.
For a more specific answer on “what’s next?” I’ll say I am working and preparing to travel for a bit this summer, and then? I just want to love and be loved.
