Abstract: People
When I stand on one side of a canyon,
my dusty feet aching to explore the other side,
I can see the bridge long before it exists.
My mind creates solutions, timelines, and predicts hurdles,
the problem has a clear answer,
easy enough to deploy.
My sight is limited to these tasks,
of learning and building,
the predictable sequences of life.
What I cannot envision is her,
the lady of my heart,
and our family.
I cannot see her face or imagine what she smells like,
what see wants in life,
or how will she love me back.
There’s an ease to a task,
a job and it’s work steps,
a to b, then to c.
People are not tasks,
we are a thousand variables,
beyond measure or human intellect.
And I wouldn’t dare pretend to understand us,
so because of this divide,
I cannot see my future with other people.
I cannot predict who will be my friend,
who will live or die,
who will love me and give me there all as I give mine.
The challenge of this moment isn’t to define a new process,
create a checklist of avoidable fears,
or slink into despair.
It’s to lean into Faith,
the river that begins when I stop trying,
and relinquish my grip of control.