Journal: #226 Self Grace
I typed out a whole blog about routine and creativity. It was shit. Totally rubbish. I’m not even sure why I bothered to write it. The words were devoid of meaning. It’s like I was writing to satisfy some need to post a blog. Blah.
What a waste of my time.
So, instead of meaningless words, I’ll repent and say: I shall not do that again. If I’m tired and out of mental space. I’ll just skip the post for the evening.
I know why I wrote what I wrote. It’s my need to satisfy the goals in my head. If I miss an unplanned day, then I’m behind the ball, and if I’m behind then I’m not dedicated. And if I’m not dedicated than I’m a failure. So really, I spent 30 minutes writing nothing to prove I’m not a failure. AHHHHHHH.
How many time will I have to tell myself I am loved and worthy of love? His grace covers me and does not end? I am enough? I don’t have to prove anything to anyone?
Thanks you Lord for reminding me. Yes. I am enough. I can give myself grace to be tired. Amen.